I am scared of falling in love, of craving you every second of every day, of needing you, of being addicted to you. I am scared of missing you more than I can handle, of losing you and myself in you. I am scared of not being enough, and of seeing my insufficiency in your eyes.
I’ve been crying on and off today. I feel so empty and afraid and whenever I’m alone, everything just escalates.
I never want to love someone like that, so much that there would be no room left for myself, so much that I wouldn’t be able to survive if he left me.